My Less Perfect Night

Well, before describing how tonight is, lets consider what I'd like it to be that it isn't.  I think my perfect night would be curling up in my huge, comfortable bed, and drifting off to sleep with pleasant thoughts of puppies or turtle snowflakes, or some other such wonderful happiness.

To be fair, this scene is played out on many nights, though its usually more that I pass out from exhaustion in my huge, comfortable bed. But that is really quite pleasant.

Tonight though, is one of those inexplicably sleepless nights. My mom is sleeping in my bed, and as I lay there trying to sleep next to her, I realized I may never be comfortable with someone else in my bed. I'd like to think that's not true, but typically my sleepless nights are when others stay the night with me.

Or perhaps its the rather large amount of caffeine in my system that keeps my mind and heart racing as I lay there, attempting to empty all thoughts. A lot happened today. I had work, with several awkward encounters with coworkers, an unexpected trip to D.I. looking for ugly sweaters for me and a therapist at my work, and our work party, where I wore said sweater all night, hot, uncomfortable, girl sized red sweater with kittens on it. I also made several blunders at this social event, as is my want, and maybe i'm thinking about that?

I think not though. I had several neat talks with people, pretty much enjoyed myself, and don't really care not being the coolest cat at the party. I have made some work-related mistakes involving finances, and that always freaks me out. But none of these things are really on my mind. My mind just won't slow down.

So now I'm out on my short couch, keeping my turtle up so she's splashing around in her dirty nasty tank I need to clean, wondering what I can do that will put me to sleep. I need sleep. I love it. And it loves me.

by the by, i bought a swimming pool for my turtle. pics to come when its all set up and ready :)